Yet Another Week

The week started out rainy and bleak and for the first couple of days, I couldn't really get outside. Happily, the sun has begun to shine again in recent days, and now I'm hardly popping into the office.

It seems that I've been spent the majority of my work time in the allium beds this week. Wednesday, a party of us went about weeding them, and afterwards, I was given the task of re-mulching. I spent almost all of Thursday afternoon mulching, paying no heed the the prevelence of thorns in the hay mulch until later when I realized just how much it had scraped up my legs. There's a visible line where my capris ended (at least I was wearing longer ones that day) and another where my socks began. In between is very scratched up. After that, I began getting up early to work when it was still cool enough for me not to hate my life while wearing long pants as I completed the job.

Last night I went to Twin Oaks to play ultimite frisbee and for their visitor party. (Twin Oaks has these month-long visitor periods that are concluded by the visitors throwing a party) I'm really not any good at frisbee, but I actually came out of it feeling like I'd done alright. To be sure, I was utterly exhausted from running so hard for so long, but there was something nice about that too. The visitor party was basically a bonfire with marshmellows and other food. People came along and played guitars and sang. I finally heard Cliff, with whom I often talk music here, play guitar. Twin Oaks also has a barbershop group and they sang. That was pretty sweet.

Another Week

(The picture is from Obohemia: http://www.oboe-comics.com/ and it's like the best website ever)

It's amazing, on the one hand I don't feel like I've been here all that long, but at the same time, my last post feels like forever ago. So here goes my week in an attempt of something like chronological order:

I believe it was Monday morning that I began hacking away at bamboo. So Acorn has this bamboo, and I guess someone has decided that it has grown far enough. G Paul asked me to cut some down and beat it back to a certain line, and then I got to strip branches off. This has actually been an on going project through the entire week--there's a lot of bamboo. This was actually kind of entertaining for me just because bamboo is such a cool plant. I mean, it's bamboo!! I suppose as an oboist I'm supposed to like bamboo, as the arundo donax plant oboe reeds come from is closely related.

I also learned to pick orders this week. Now, as well as putting seeds in packets, I can work in the seed room, gathering together what people have ordered and rubber-banding them together. It's not real exciting, but actually takes a certain amount of concentration since the numbers start to look the same after a while. I understand the way the seeds are catalogged though, which is a good thing I suppose.

The other good thing about picking is that the seed room is temperature controlled as nowhere else here is. Yesterday and today the weather has been in the 90s, and it's not supposed to go down until Wednesday. The heat is brutal. The last couple of days working outside only an hour and a half was enough to completely wipe me out for the rest of the day. Today I only needed to work that long to make quota (42 hours a week, and I was almost there already) and I spent it in the office this morning rather than working in the garden. Hopefully not doing any physical work today will make me ready to face tomorrow.

Working outside has included not only the bamboo exploits but more garden work. I've been doing mostly weeding and transplanting lately. I still really enjoy working in the garden, but I think I need to rework my schedule, at least for the next few days to do it mostly in the early morning and after dinner before sundown. The thing that is both nice and difficult about living here is that I make my own schedule and can do pretty much whatever work I want. No one is telling me what I must do, so I simply have to look around to find what needs doing and ask around to see if I can help people. It's nice because I can do things like rearrange the order of my day, but it can be difficult if there aren't obvious things that need doing.

I'm quite happy here, except for the brutal heat, and I hope things are also good at home. I hear the Wind Ensemble got a 1 at state contest, which is awesome! Good job guys, I knew you could do it!!! :)

Good Times

I've now spent about a week at Acorn and I'm having a really great time. I was surprised when I got here how welcomed I felt and how much working in dirt made me happy. I've done a lot of work in the garden, mostly weeding, and have done quite a bit of seed packing in the office. Seed packing basically entails weighing seeds and putting the right amount into packets to be sold. I'm hoping that in days and weeks to come I might be able to do some other things in the office. I also did some paper stapling, but that's about the same level of task. I don't object to packing seeds of course since it does need to get done.

Yesterday was my "get off the property day." First I went to Charlottesville with Thomas and Juniper for the Earth Week eco-fair where Southern Exposure Seed Exchange--Acorn's seed business--had a table. It wasn't actually all that exciting and I had to attempt to be helpful to people when I couldn't actually answer any of their questions. Happily, we were so close to the stage that it was really hard to hear what people were saying so people didn't try too hard and I had an excuse for being confused. I was never at the table by myself either so it was really just a matter of getting people to talk to Thomas or Juniper instead.

I was only back at Acorn long enough to eat dinner and then I went to Twin Oaks, which is another community about 7 miles away. Twin Oaks is much larger than Acorn, 110ish as opposed to 15ish, and they make their money from hammocks and tofu as opposed to seeds, but they do have a lot in common and there's a lot of interaction between the two communities. The original purpose of going was a game of ultimate frisbee, and I discovered to no great surprise that I am still very bad at the game. I had fun anyway though. We then went to the "birthday" party of a Twin Oaker (now 9500 days old) and there was smoked cheese (made with Twin Oaks's new smoker) and popcorn. I enjoyed being there because I knew a couple people who had been working at Acorn when I first arrived and people are just generally really nice at these communities.

In general, things are going great and I am happy. I hope things are still good at home!

The Plan

Well here's the plan, people. If anyone's checking this blog at all anymore, you're aware that I haven't bothered to post anything for quite a while. There's something about posting personal experiences and feelings for the whole internet to read (things I do try to write about in my journals) that makes the blogging thing a little more complicated. Plus, at ProMusica anyway, I was almost more afraid of gossiping too much about the people in the organization or just the state of things because I don't know that they really want that kind of information out there. So from now on, I'm going to try to write once or twice a week completely separate from any journal so that anyone who wants knows I'm alive and what I'm up to, but if I want to keep some thoughts and fears and opinions between me and my journal reader, then then that is where they'll stay.

For this Walkabout, for which I will be leaving in an hour or so, I will be living at Acorn Community, an intentional, egalitarian community, in Mineral Virginia. It seems that I'll be doing household type chores, helping in the garden where most of the food grows, and helping with their seed business. But really, I don't have a great idea of what I'll be doing at all (heck what does any of that mean, right?) and even though that kind of makes me nervous, in real life that's not why I'm doing this Walkabout. The idea was just to find something entirely different to how I'm used to living and working, something out of my comfort zone. I'm uncomfortable with how comfortable I am in my own convictions and opinions of the world and my remedy is a good shaking up. So here's a whole new world of sorts and now I simply have to wait and see who I become.

Everything is Better With Band Class

It is Saint Patrick’s day. Yes. It is awkward to be around adults talking about the plans to go drink (or their premature celebrations due to a dance performance tonight). I got a shamrock shake at McDonald’s. That is how to celebrate Saint Patrick’s day: green food coloring. Lots of it.

Anyway, life at ProMusica was actually pretty normal. No more stinky sewers, anyway. I needed to work on sending out invitations for the Student Gala, and Julia asked me to find websites for the orchestra boosters of the MIS schools. The first school on the list was Thomas Worthington. I don’t think their orchestra has a website. I don’t think Kilbourne’s does either. They must have boosters, right? I know WK’s choir has boosters, and the band clearly has boosters, so there must be someone out the supporting the orchestra, right? The sad thing is, I don’t know. The orchestra doesn’t do all that much. They have their concerts every year and that’s about it. Band has marching band, at the very least, as well as all our fun trips and what have you. Choir also goes on trips, and has done all sorts of interesting things. But I don’t know if the orchestra ever does anything but their requisite concerts for the year, and they may not need boosters for that. I wonder. I was very frustrated though, because I thought if there were any website I’d be able to find it would be Worthington’s. I’ve also gotten used to thinking that you can find anything you want on the internet if you look hard enough. I seem to have been wrong on both counts.

Sending out invitations for the student gala will be amusing for me because basically, I’m doing a mailing. I’ve pretty much made the contact spreadsheet, although Julia needs to look at it and maybe change and add some people. Then she’ll show me how to use that to print a jillion envelopes without doing what I did for Ashley where I printed each individually. I’ve already printed about 200 invitations. That involved losing a fight with the printer. I caused a paper jam and couldn’t figure out where it was. Julia had to help me. Stupid printer. After that, I get to stuff envelopes and put them through the postage machine. It’ll be like all those mailings I helped Joe and Ashley with… only mine. Bwahahahaha!

STANK!

Today was certainly different. When I was talking to Julia at the beginning of the day, a loud noise started up just below the window to her office. There was a white rectangle spray-painted onto the sidewalk and a man was taking a large circular saw to the concrete while three others watched. (“Why is it always one guy doing the work while three people, now five I guess, watch?”) I eventually retreated to my own workspace, both glad to get away from the noise and reluctant to lose the chance to learn what was going on. The office I work in is on the opposite side of the suite from Julia’s, so the noise barely carried at all. This became more significant as the day progressed.

You see, what was being dug up was a sewer line. All of a sudden, Janet and Julia, whose windows face towards the work that was being done, began exclaiming that their rooms smelled like poo. Suddenly, any jealousy and curiosity was wiped out of me. After some commotion, the custodian happened to come up to empty our trash bins and was able to explain what was going on. Of course, the most essential information—that someone was digging into a sewage line—was all too apparent without explanation. Janet was eventually able to get a hold of the manager of the building and after a short while of talking with him on the phone, she and Julia decided to go to Panera to work rather than stay in their putrid offices.

This left me without a great deal to do. The office was certainly much quieter without Janet, Julia or Ashley. (Ashley went to New York this weekend and will be back tomorrow) Mostly I guess it’s quiet without Ashley. It’s not that I had nothing to do, but I didn’t feel any need to push things along with any gusto. It was Monday, after all. My office thankfully never got to smell hardly at all, but when I went farther back to print something it was already pretty bad. I’m sure that since Julia and Janet’s offices overlook the construction it must have been intolerable. I finished what Julia had given me to do and helped Joe some with a mailing. Ah mailings, how fun they are.

Julia and Janet came back around 4:00 and the air was pretty much back to normal. I did a little more work for Julia but I ended up leaving a little early. My dad was on a business trip today (but just today. He left ridiculously early in the morning and was home for dinner) so I drove myself to ProMusica and back. It was nice too, because it made it so that I could leave early. I think tomorrow we’ll be checking over all that needs to be done for the April concert and making a game plan. Things will definitely be picking up soon with that concert coming up. I’m excited because it will be just as important as the February concert with preparations on about the same scale (although it is all taking place at the Southern—no Josephinum) except this time I’ll understand what’s going on and be on top of things.

If you think about it, it’s all been broken up quite nicely. I started the week of the February concert, which was absolutely insane. I was utterly overwhelmed, but I picked up a lot quickly and had to establish my place almost immediately. I learned a lot right there at the beginning and basically saw most of what I’d be working on for the rest of the Walkabout in action. Then things slowed down significantly and I got to actually get my bearings and fill in all the missing pieces slowly. I learned about the Student Board and the gala and began working on that. The March concert came and went, and I was able to have quite a bit to do with it because it wasn’t a huge production. Now something much larger is coming up, very much like February, but now I will really be a part of it and will be able to say that I significantly contributed instead of just getting caught up in the whirlwind. Now, if I were I nerd, I’d refer to whatever it’s called when a piece is written in the ABA form (ternary form) and call it my Walkabout… Oh I guess I just did... well, I guess the truth comes out.

Parking Garages and Vouchers

Julia wasn’t at ProMusica today but I was left a fair amount to do. However, before I got to start that, Ashley asked me to drive over to OSU to hang some signs for ProMusica’s next concert and put out some flyers. I have to say, it was a bit of an adventure. But as seems to happen with me, the task was not nearly so significant as the simple act of getting where I needed to be.

That said, OSU isn’t very hard to find. The difficulty was finding a place to park. Ashley told me where Weigel Hall, the music building, is and said that once I passed it there should be a parking garage or meters or something where I could park. All went well enough at first. I got to the parking garage, but didn’t notice until I had pushed the button to get my ticket that it was for keycard only—no visitors. So I had no choice but to back out a bit and turn around, which was kind of awkward but not the end of the madness.

I went around in a circle and then decided to turn on a random street in hopes of finding somewhere to park. I didn’t get very far until I hit a “do not enter” sign barring construction work. There had been nothing to mark this before it was too late (I checked as I left) so I found myself turning around in a way that must have been illegal (but I know there couldn’t be cars coming the other direction) although it certainly was an exemplary three point turn and had to decide what to do. I’d only driven a few feet when I saw a police officer. I decided that although I could well be questioned on how I’d gotten where I was, I figured that in asking piteously for directions I would come off as lost and confused enough as not to invite punishment. And, with his direction, I did find a garage for visitor parking. Hallelujah.

It’s ironic that I commented on my little vouchers as a sort of landmark yesterday because Julia wanted me to have everyone look over them before I made copies and Ashley completely rewrote them. Oh well. I don’t think I would have even minded if I hadn’t decided to make some significance out of them, but then it’s still a learning experience so I’ll take it. Still, I can’t say I wasn’t a bit disappointed. Then, I made packets for all the students who will be participating in the side-by-side performance on April 4th, sorted them by school, and sent them off to orchestra directors. This process was interrupted by Joe’s printing of 250 envelopes. Good God, I think it took two hours. Ashley was rereading my new and improved vouchers when he started so I didn’t get to print those until he finished.

Excitingly enough, King’s Island sent an email to Julia—they’re donating two tickets to the park to the student gala! But they aren’t due to arrive until May 1st, so I got to make vouchers for that. It was exciting though, because those parks are expensive so that was by far the heftiest donation so far. It made me quite happy.

Bad Reeds *ARE* The End of the World

My day didn’t start off very well on Thursday. When I got to band class, I realized I had left all my good reeds at home. We were recording our district contest music and I had a solo in every single song. I managed to get through it ok, but not as well as I would have liked to and that’s the recording that the performance will be remembered by. But that would have been embarrassing on any occasion—I know that in high school band lots of people don’t bother to play on good reeds all the time but I’m trying to hold myself to something like the standards I’m expecting in years to come. And in college, episodes like that will be utterly unacceptable.

Then, at ProMusica, it was basically determined that I would have to call those places for which I could not find a name to contact yesterday. For a while, this caused in me a swell of something like panic. Not more soliciting phone calls! Not more silent auction requests! Julia asked me to burn a couple CDs at about this point in the day and I meant to call places while they were burning. I didn’t, but I began when they finished. It was funny, because overall I was fine once I did. (as before) but I was just as overwhelmed to begin with, if not more so, as I was on the first day Julia asked me to do basically the same thing.

I did finish printing letters for Ashley yesterday, and the last thing I did was help Julia make some vouchers for students participating in the side by side performance the night of the student gala. Basically, there has been this ticket challenge thing where students at high schools competed to sell the most ProMusica tickets and the top five schools get to send students to play with ProMusica at the April concert. The winning school was supposed to open the concert on their own, but the director opted out because it was a younger ensemble and he didn’t feel they were ready for that kind of experience. So they’re all getting recognized but they aren’t playing a piece alone. The point is, I was to make vouchers for them to attend the student gala for free.

It occurred to me when I was working on them that most of what I’ve done hasn’t really required much creativity or even just decision making at all. Most of what I’ve done has been putting information into a template. So it struck me that even though it wasn’t some huge important thing, this was probably one of the more significant tasks I’ve done lately because I was just told to make some vouchers that should take up about a third up of a page and ask for contact information. I know it wasn’t some huge deal and there wasn’t tons of room for error, but it was still kind of nice.

Patience is a Virtue

Yesterday wasn’t all that interesting. Julia had no voice and she brought her dog to work. If no one minds, I’d rather not post my attempt to stretch that information into a full length journal entry. (Oh and I talked about my fight with the printer. I think he’s cheating on me with the computers.) So I’ll just skip on to my lovely Wednesday.

Ashley was my mentor today, haha. Basically, she’s really swamped right now and Julia isn’t so except for a couple quick things, I was helping Ashley out today. I really like working with Ashley, for all that I was basically doing the really time consuming but easily explained (and therefore not all too challenging) work. First I stuffed a bunch of envelopes with invitations to Artist Circle and put postage on them. Then I went back to printing the letters from yesterday. The bonus to envelope stuffing today was that I was also given the list of invites to check off who was being sent an invitation and make sure no one was missed. It was kind of interesting because the list was broken up into the board of trustees and then donors to ProMusica, further broken up by the range of money donated. So while I of course couldn’t go listing off all the trustees, I could recognize names I might have heard in conversation. Also, many of the donors had a business listed with them so if I was paying attention I could notice what businesses sponsor ProMusica. (Incidentally, I went to the Columbus Symphony Youth Orchestra’s concert Sunday night and I was suddenly curious to read all the ads in the program just to see who’s supporting the symphony. I never would have done that before my Walkabout at ProMusica.)

Printing went slowly. My computer was moving at a particularly crawling pace, taking as long thirty seconds or so, at least, just to load the print menu. And I couldn’t just click print and send fifty copies to be printed. Every letter is, of course, personalized. Then, I also had to figure out to whom I should address about two thirds of the letters because most of the businesses on the asks list didn’t have a contact listed. The… internet… was… painful… to… use… I think I spend thirty minutes trying to navigate three pages of one website. As it happens, that was a pretty cool website. You learn some pretty cool, little known, history lessons if you visit Aspen Ski and Board’s website and find either the “about us” or “history” or something like that. Eventually, it occurred to me that I could switch to Yvette’s computer, but that was close to three o’clock. The frustrating part wasn’t so much that the computer was moving so slowly; on its own, I could tolerate that without a fuss. But Ashley asked me yesterday if I would be able to finish printing today and I thought I would. I didn’t at all. It kind of made me sad.

There was at least one moment today when I was just struck by how happy I was to be there. It wasn’t anything so much about what I was doing—I was sitting at the computer waiting for some website to load—but Ashley found a dead mouse at her house this morning and Joe was making fun of her… I don’t know it was just really hilarious and I realized how much I like all these people. In general, the staff is pretty awesome and in that regard I really like it here.

Dvorak and JAG

When I arrived at ProMusica on Monday, waiting for me was the printout I’d made of the April open rehearsal program, only now it had some red ink on it. That’s cool though: after college comp I don’t think twice about red ink. One thing I had fun with, however, was the spelling of Dvorak’s name. You see, it’s all very well to spell Dvorak “Dvorak” most of the time, but in real life the “a” should have an accent and the “r” should have a little scoop thing over it. It’s not too hard to put an accent on an “a.” In fact knowing how is absolutely vital in higher level Spanish courses. But I had never seen the “r” symbol before. I thought this would be easy too. I’d just go to the “insert” dropdown menu and choose “symbol.” I’d look at the list of symbols and find the one I wanted. Unfortunately, the “r” I was looking for wasn’t a choice.

Now, I had actually gone through that mess the first time around when I made the program to begin with. Everywhere the program notes referred to Dvorak, they listed “Dvo_ák” instead. I wiki’d Dvorak to find out what the problem might be but decided to just use a normal “r” when wasn’t one of the symbol’s on the computer. I tried copy, pasting the special “r” from the wiki article but it came out as _. Julia told me to just use a normal “r.”

When I got the program back from Ashley, however, she inked a little scoop over all the r’s in Dvorak so I decided to try again because I was at a different computer, after all. I found the wikipedia not for Dvorak, but for the special r in his name and tried to copy, paste. With much tinkering and cajoling, I got this to work.

The most significant part of my day came afterwards when Julia and I went to Hilliard Davidson to check on some kids working on the Creative Hybrids composition project. But it turned out Julia and Judy Shafer (Jazz Arts Group’s education director also involved in Creative Hybrids) were not really needed so we decided to go to Panera and have a meeting.

My, that was interesting, although there are many details I do not completely understand. They talked about the Creative Hybrids project, but also a new (potential?) piece of legislation that would require schools to offer students credit for learning experiences outside the classroom. (hmmm, does that sound familiar?) OK, so admittedly I don’t really know what I’m referring to, but it was intriguing because of the way the idea is going over in other circles. It makes me realize how much Linworth affects the way I view education and I wonder how I would view something like that without having been a Linworth student… except if I weren’t a Linworth student I wouldn’t have been present for the conversation.

It seems that Judy was present at some meeting of a collection of art and music teachers. The visual art teachers, apparently, were particularly afraid that their jobs would be put in jeopardy because students wouldn’t go to art classes anymore. That wasn’t the part that surprised me though, not because I think it’s necessarily true (and if it is, the kids would probably be better off that way) but because I expect a certain number people to take a “how will this hurt me?” approach to any kind of change. This led into a discussion of youth orchestras and bands that some people fear take away from the public school band programs. I know to be in CYSB you are required to be a member of your school band if it has one, and Julia said that it had been the same when she did work for CSYO. Apparently, however, CSYO has changed the rules from “required” to “strongly encouraged” because of lawsuits. I’m not sure what I think of that though. I’m especially interested to see why the requirement is a legal problem, but oh well.

There was also, apparently, the logistical problem to be solved of how to deal with actually giving the credit. Specifically, Judy mentioned concerns over compensation for the teacher to whom a student would present a project. I collect that in the midst of a discussion of what a band director would do, and all that they already do, Judy suggested that it wouldn’t by necessity be a music teacher. Imagine if a student wanted to study with one of JAG’s musicians from [I forget what latin American country] to learn about culture and presented to a social studies teacher. The room, Judy said, got quiet for about thirty seconds and I guess it was the person leading the discussion who said, “I hadn’t thought of that” and started scribbling notes.

Wait… what?! Is it really just because I’m a Linworth student that I don’t think twice about that suggestion? It seems so natural to expect that everything’s related to everything else, and that’s especially true of the arts. I’d go so far as to say that the ability to connect the arts to science and math and social studies is absolutely vital to keeping them a part of the education system. It’s well for Worthington, but in many districts both locally and nationally, arts education is dwindling and disintegrating. There’s something disconcerting to the thought that no one but Judy Shafer in a gathering of art teachers would look at the arts as an extension of some other field. Well, at least there’s Judy Shafer.

Good, Good Concert

On Saturday, I got to the Josephinum at about 12:30 to begin the day. I wasn’t perfectly sure where I was supposed to park and come in, only that I needed to drive around to the back, but I saw a door that I thought Julia and I had let Tim in through last month and I was right! It lead up into the chapel. I was a bit pleased with myself.

There wasn’t a whole lot to be done. As before, Julia and I are supposed to be present at rehearsals, but there’s really nothing—hopefully—for us to do. I listened to the first half of rehearsal. Second half, Julia and I went into a back room and watched an episode of the Colbert Report on her computer. When rehearsal was over there was still more down time until Joe, Ashley and Arianne arrived with programs. Even that didn’t create a whole lot to be done, until we realized that some of the programs we had stuffed were the January programs and not the Josephinum programs. That got taken care of though, so when people started coming life could run smoothly.

For this concert, the orchestra was in the back of the chapel where the organ is instead of in the front since the goal of the program was to show off the Josephinum’s new organ. What this meant was that we didn’t want patrons using the main doors in the front of the chapel to come in and instead intended to direct traffic towards a side door. The only problem with this plan was that the elevator only goes to the main doors, so anyone disabled or unable to use stairs had to be able to enter through the main doors. I got stationed there.

Let me tell you, at first I tried to turn people away. That is to say, there were people coming up the elevator who just hadn’t caught on that they were supposed to use the stairs and I sent a few back. But I couldn’t keep it up. I’m really glad a… police officer? Security guard? Offered to go downstairs and redirect people at the elevator because right before he asked I had resolved to stop arguing with people even if we didn’t want people going through that way. We also didn’t want angry patrons, and people are just frustrating sometimes.

I was reminded of this summer when I worked food and beverage at Zoombezi Bay. My little restaurant was right by the wave pool and got the most customers in the park—but that’s not what whoever set things up predicted before summer started. Surfside (my restaurant) wasn’t made to serve as many people as came up every day, and we always had obnoxious lines right around lunch. There were times I wanted to go running out into the line waving a hot spatula screaming furiously that there just weren’t any fries. Really though, the hard part was the looks people gave me when I couldn’t just magically produce the food they wanted instantaneously (we were supposed to run cafeteria style). And I got the same looks Saturday at the Josephinum.

The concert itself was great, though. This Elgar piece… absolutely lush and gorgeous sounds from the strings and organ. It was a really good concert.

Good Times at ProMusica

Yesterday, as I predicted, was a pretty great day. In the morning, Ashley asked me to fold a pile of inserts to stuff programs with. There is a performance today after all. I have been getting a bit tired of this kind of work lately, but Katie came in today and once she started helping things went a lot faster. We finished about thirty minutes before Julia wanted to leave to load-in at the Josephinum, and she didn't have any assignments for us just then. Pretty much everyone else at the office had disappeared to somewhere (we saw Arianne and Ashley returning from a walk when we left) so they couldn't really ask us for anything either. It was kind of cool though, because I talked to Katie about college, auditions, and where I think I might go.

Talking to Katie about college was really interesting because she's from Cleveland and three of the schools I want to go to are from right around there. I guess she had thought for a long time that she definitely wanted to go to Baldwin-Wallace, but changed her mind quasi at the last minute and ended up at OSU. But, the reason for changing her mind (a problem with her tuba embouchure that her private teacher—with whom she would continue to take lessons if she were to attend B-W) doesn't apply to me at all, so she was really encouraging me to go there. I haven't heard back from them yet though, so I can't make the call yet. In the game of college admissions (which is some combination of poker and chicken) it's "their move."

Load-in at the Josephinum went swimmingly. Setting up chairs, stands, and stand lights is another task that goes much faster when several people are at it. James Yeager, who I think is in charge of music at the Josephinum and is who Julia works with to get the Josephinum series set up, let us in but then was practicing organ while we were setting up. It's really cool, I'm excited. Afterwards, Julia and I stopped at UDF to get milk shakes. We went to the one right by Linworth, and for a second I was confused as to why the school was dark and no one was there. Then I remembered there was no school today. Silly me.

After I took care of a few quick things, Ashley had me stuffing programs when I got back. Joe helped, and so did a board member who had come in to bring wine for ProMusica's wine raffle at their Gala in May (every board member brings in two bottles of wine and they raffle the collection off) and I think to talk to Janet. I talked to him about Linworth and Walkabout. That reminds me, I was called a good intern twice yesterday—not by Julia, but that's not the point. When we picked up stands at the Southern Theatre to take to the Josephinum, Greg (stage manager I think) talked to us for a while before we left. Julia said that I was leaving after the April concert and he was like, "why is it all the good ones leave us?" Yeah, I know it was a joke and all, but I was happy. Then, when I was talking to Marty (the board member) about Linworth, Joe was like, "yeah, this is one of our *good* interns." Yay!

When I finished with that, Julia was getting ready to leave for a school visit and didn't know what to give me to do for an hour and a half. Ashley asked me to find and read news articles about what' going on in the classical music world and make a little document of shot summaries and URLs for her to reference. That was probably the most rewarding assignment I had today. In any case, I enjoyed doing it, because it was interesting to me. I was looking for information about something that I also wanted to know about. I left late because I wasn't done reading.

I Know The Staff

This [Wednesday] was the second time hot chocolate changed the course of my Wednesday. Thank God for chocolate. Otherwise, life without band would drive me to insane, and I’d really rather walk. It’s better for the environment, you see. Already the morning has become something of a blur. Seems like I did a few wrap up things for yesterday’s meeting.

I’ve been thinking about my relationships with people in the office besides Julia. For a long time, I basically just went to her for everything whether that made sense or not. For example, at the beginning of February, ProMusica hadn’t gotten our parking passes for the month. (Remember? I think I wrote about that) I always went to Julia on the subject of parking, even though it was Joe who would have either had a pass for me or access to some cash to give me to feed the box. I remember feeling particular awkwardness towards Joe for some reason, no idea why. I think maybe that would have been the case regardless of who worked at the front desk or something. In any case, on Monday I just asked Joe for a parking pass. I mentioned being teased yesterday for breaking the printer (I swear I didn’t! J ) and some similar silliness ensued when he left me in the office alone for a few minutes today. (I know Julia was on a school visit, not sure about everyone else.)

Then there’s Ashley, for whom I’ve now done some work, and she’s just really friendly and funny. Any digressions in staff meetings are probably her fault. She’s done a lot to make me feel comfortable here, though really. And I just found out today that she and Arianne just started working at ProMusica in November. I guess I had sort of known they were new—at my first staff meeting one of the things they talked about was how to make their voicemail boxes say their names—but until today I hadn’t really known by how much. For all I could tell, Julia and Ashley might have known each other forever. I have heard the names of a few other marketing directors, in fact there was this one time when someone asked for Madeline—apparently Ashley’s predecessor—and the call got transferred to me. I don’t think I wrote about it at the time. It was confusing for a minute.

I still don’t really feel like I know Arianne and Janet particularly. Yvette only comes in once a week or so, and I’ve barely said two words to her. Tom (I’ve only mentioned him once and by the wrong name. He is the librarian and contractor for the musicians, I’m pretty sure) comes in now and again and we always see each other then because I’m using his computer. Arianne seems like an incredibly nice person. I know that’s about the vaguest personality word ever, but it fits. She’s always smiling, and she always greets me and everything, but she isn’t as bubbly as Ashley is. There was one day that she brought yellow roses for everyone in the office. It made me happy. Janet would be intimidating, being the executive director, except that she just isn’t. That doesn’t mean that she is whatever the opposite of intimidating would be, but she’s the kind of person who can put you at ease. I guess that’s a good quality for someone in her position, you know? So that’s about everyone, at least the ones who are around regularly. There’s Tim too, (music director) but since he lives in Arizona it’s not as if I ever see him. I will on Friday though. As I recall, the operations meeting last month was the first thing that made me really happy about this walkabout, so I’m really looking forward to the one on Friday.

Ode to PMCO's Copy Machine

Today [Tuesday] was the day of the Student Advisory Board meeting, so that’s what I spent most of the day preparing for. I made sure I had a spreadsheet of all the contacts people had made asking for money, including my own and I basically figured out the value of the donations and thought about what I’d say. I also cleaned up all the extra versions of the same original spreadsheet of contacts I made that have been floating around the system for a while. I don’t know how that happened but it has been confusing trying to figure out what is up to date. But the extra ones are all deleted now, I think. I also printed out posters a SAB-er made for the gala to advertise, as well as a bunch of flyers. Tickets go on sale tonight, and now we get to promote it. I’m going to take a couple posters to Linworth at seminar tomorrow night, I guess.

So I suppose that it’s time for the long overdue “copy machine rant.” Not that I’ve really had anything to rant about before now, and not that this necessarily add up to much either, but I recall when I came in for my interview at ProMusica Jen mentioned that most students end up writing, among other things, a journal dedicated to the copy machine. I thought of that today when we were playing with it. So, I hereby dedicate this blog post to ProMusica’s copy machine/printer (It’s two in one!). No Joe (ticketing), I did not break it (as you accused).

Printing off all the flyers and posters was indeed a bit of a feat. I started with the flyers. The flyers were meant to be half a page, but we couldn’t make two print on one page through the computer. Instead, I had to copy two together in the copy machine to make them print on one page. I did this sideways the first time, and then I had trouble making it scan again. I wasted some paper. Then, after printing twenty of them, I looked at the notes I had taken and realized that not only did I want ten more, but I was supposed to have printed them on colored paper.
The shelf from which I would acquire colored paper is a bit of a mess. When I’ve been told to find anything from it before, I often spend a long to trying to find it, pick up the wrong thing anyway, and discover that what I was looking for was in fact right in front of me. So I needed to find 8 ½ x 11 pretty colored paper. It didn’t matter what color. I eventually chose yellow. It was thick cardstock, but I didn’t know whether there were any other choices, so I loaded it into the copy machine and told it to print 15 copies.

Well I guess I didn’t close the tray all the way, because the copier decided to print the flyers from the second tray instead—letterhead. So I wasted some more paper. I got the paper load properly and started again. I think that’s when Joe accused me of making a mess and breaking the printer. I was quite sure I had not yet succeeded in the latter, however. Indeed, I managed to print fifteen copies of the flyers on yellow paper. When I checked the tray though, I didn’t think there was enough paper for the other fifteen, so I went to get more yellow paper. I realized, when I got back, that even though I had found the same color, this was normal paper, not cardstock. I decided I didn’t care. I wasn’t sure what I was supposed to be using and was pretty sure I wouldn’t find the cardstock again. So I shoved more paper in the tray and printed the rest of the fliers.

The real fun, however, came when I wanted to print the poster. I could not find the right size of paper. Sure enough, when I decided on the one large loose leaf of paper that I saw to show Julia, it was the wrong size. There were, it turned out, maybe four sheets of 11 x 17 sheets of paper on the shelf. (That’s what I was looking for.) The rest were in the room I’ve been working in, in the filing cabinet right by my desk… not that I’d have any reason to know that, and Julia hadn’t thought of it until I asked. I decided to just ask Julia to figure out how to make the computer print the posters. I saw, when I asked it to print, that it was trying to format the picture as if it would print on normal paper, but that’s not what we wanted. Julia played with that for a while, and then decided to do it from her computer when it didn’t print right. We had to try that a few times too, but we finally got it and they’re really very cool. So that’s my fun printer story. I’m sure it was very exciting. It’s funny though, I noticed on Sunday when I was subbing as a teacher aid at my synagogue, that ProMusica has a nicer copy machine. What’s more, if I had wanted to do anything besides just make a regular copy, like if I’d wanted to copy several pages or make something front and back, I wouldn’t have known how—but I would at ProMusica! Not that it mattered; I just needed fifteen copies of one coloring sheet so I was set. Still, it actually kind of bothered me because I was fairly certain that those commands did exist on Beth Tikvah’s copier, I just didn’t know how to find them.

Things Are Looking Up

Yesterday [Monday] was a pretty good day. I found it funny; in seminar we were discussing grunt work and after I talked, Liz said that she knew sometimes at non-profits they do a mailing and have an envelope stuffing day. Even though I could completely envision it, it had never exactly happened… until yesterday. I think actually this will take up more than one day, but we only spent maybe two hours on it yesterday (as opposed to the entire day). Joe needed to finish preparing the second batch. So, after stuffing envelopes, I got to un-stuff programs. We used the same little envelopes to mail back donations to stuff the programs as we put in the mailings, so I was given a box of old programs that hadn’t gotten distributed and took all the little envelopes out. I’m not sure how long that took.

It’s funny, and I observed this before when stuffing programs, but I really didn’t mind the work at all and even kind of enjoyed it. The big pile of tedious work shouldn’t have looked any different from the one giant spreadsheet of contacts I had to compile for Julia, but when I did that I had to fight back a feeling of futility, a feeling that I would never, ever finish. I think this was just as monotonous and time consuming, but somehow it didn’t feel that way. I don’t really know why.

There was a staff meeting today, and I realized that I was really looking forward to it. I think this is the first time I actually legitimately took good notes too. Previously, I was never really sure what to write and grew self-conscious about it, but I guess I’ve gotten a better feel of what actually applies to me and what I’ll probably be involved with later. Things disintegrated into strangeness at the end. Janet warned Ashley that she would corrupt me, which was funny. I thought of a few years ago when I first began to spend time in the back hallway and the kinds of conversation inspired by Liam, Sean and Alisha. Stranger things have reached my ears. It’s funny, for a while conversation had become almost pristine, revolving almost always around school and band. The last couple times I’ve wandered back there, however, the freshmen were not discussing such wholesome topics. I was kind of amused, to be honest. Things cycle back around, I guess.

Yesterday, I used Facebook at ProMusica—but for a noble purpose! Julia had me upload some pictures to the computer, and then she asked be to post a few in the Creative Hybrids group on Facebook. I did almost feel bad though, because the super slow computer I use most of the time just couldn’t deal with Facebook. (It’s moments like these that make me wish they had never changed their layout—it didn’t use to take up so much computer space) So I had to used Yvette’s computer, which is newer and faster, but it’s also a PC and thus (apparently) more likely to get messed up by cookies. When I started to type in the URL though, I saw that it had already been accessed on that computer so I didn’t feel as bad anymore. There’s no way the mac could have gotten those pictures uploaded. It would have just frozen or given up or something.

Pretend Last Week Didn't Happen

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Getting Away (Thursday’s Journal)

All the work I did at ProMusica today was very tedious. I compiled five or so spreadsheets of contacts and finished Ashley's restaurant list. There were a little over 200 people on the final master spreadsheet. Yesterday, I had pasted all but one of the original spreadsheets into a new, complete one, so I got to find and delete duplicates today. Early on, I looked at the number at the bottom where the last name was. I think it was close to 280. I was kind of overwhelmed for a moment. It was going to be a lot to sort through. It was a lot to sort through.

Julia is taking next week off, so I will probably end up exploring what other people around here do some. Either that, or I'll waste a lot of time. Still, my evil plan—it's been approved actually—is to come to school on Wednesday to promote both ProMusica's next concert and the open SAB meeting on the 3^rd. I'm choosing Wednesday because it's town meeting, but I have some other reasons too. Perhaps most significant, because I won't be able to drive to school regardless and will have to get up early enough to catch a bus, I may as well do this the day I had to get up early anyway. Wednesday is also the only day I wouldn't go to band… and now I can. Plus, the choir accompanist-type-person (not sure exactly how to explain this) comes in M-W-F and his being there pretty much guarantees a real rehearsal.

As I ponder this I realize that even though, or rather because, my plan for Wednesday is a diabolical plot to further my own purposes—not that I won't further ProMusica's either—I find the whole thing kind of uncomfortable. There's a bittersweet feeling to walking into Linworth anymore, because I feel as if I should really be somewhere else. It's strange—I don't feel this way at Kilbourne so much. I guess it's because at Linworth, the people around me think I should be somewhere else. Not that I ever hear "what are you doing here?!" except when someone is pleased to see me, but in band, most people don't even realize I have any reason to be elsewhere. Well, I guess they do since I'm missing so often. I hear that the directors fairly regularly have "oh no, we can't rehearse this without the oboe part" moments. Still, that maintains the expectation that I should be around most of the time.

Then again, my attitude toward band has also changed. I don't think this was an abrupt occurrence that began at walkabout, but something that has been haunting me for a while. There's just a growing cynicism that is getting harder and harder to fight off. I guess what it comes down to is that I don't actually feel comfortable at WK either, but the pressure to be elsewhere is more subtle, and manifests itself obliquely. This is why I need to leave: I don't really belong here anymore. I can blend in just fine, but I don't quite fit. It's tempting, oh so tempting, to find ways to appear in familiar places, but the experience only seems positive on the surface. There's something not quite right just below.

Froggies Rock, Just So's You Know

I started the day cursing Wednesdays; the day I have to leave extra early and don’t even get to go to band. Because I go downtown with my dad, I get to the office a good fifteen minutes before I officially say I will, and Julia doesn’t arrive until later than that. Today when I went up to the office no one was there yet so I decided to go downstairs to the little café on the first floor and wait.

My day turned around when I bought myself hot chocolate. I’m going to stop complaining about Wednesdays. Simple things make all the difference I guess. When Arianne got there and opened the office I still didn’t really have much to do yet, but I worked some on Ashley’s restaurant list.
Most of my day was spent on the SAB silent auction, but on research. Fun research. When Katie and I originally compiled the list, it was kind of uncertain whether we were talking about a raffle or silent auction or door prizes, or what. Linworth’s rubber ducks at the international dinner came to mind (aren’t these some kind of tradition? I’d love to know how that came along.) and I suggested we come up with something “silly/cute/random/creative/cheap.” (I believe that’s how it got listed on the bottom of the spreadsheet under “vague, unspecific ideas) So I got to try to come up with something. I spent most of this time browsing orientaltrader.com, which has a fun selection but some eighty-seven things per page and, once again, I was shored up by slow computers. Yvette came in today, so I couldn’t steal the “good” computer either. I eventually came up with a few things, and Julia was really enthusiastic about these light-up squishy frogs. Apparently, there’s a history of frog-related… stuff… at ProMusica because of some musician, so the frogs were fitting as well as being cute and kind of cool. (I mean, they light up!) Julia thought that we should get three dozen, (Oriental Traders sells pretty much everything in dozens and for cheaps) have all the musicians sign one, and raffle them off. Problem was, Oriental Traders has ratings and reviews of their products on their website, and the “quality” rating for the light-up frogs was really low. I read some customer reviews and they said that only about half the frogs actually lit up. So I browsed the website again, this time on Julia’s laptop, searching for frogs. We decided to get these squirt frogs. They aren’t as cute as the light-up frogs, but they were cheaper—Julia’s just going to buy them—and had good customer ratings.

The only other thing I put much time into was “pencil research.” A few SAB members, Julia, and Ashley had a meeting last night about marketing the student gala. One of the suggestions made in regards to marketing at the SAB meeting two weeks ago was that we have pencils printed for the gala to advertise it. Apparently this came up last night and Ashley said it was a waste of time to look into. Julia disagreed, and I’m thinking it could actually be a really cool idea now. Music students have this way of showing up to class without a pencil, and music directors, in turn, tend to become very frustrated by this tendency. You see, if a change in the music, or a correction of style, is going to stay fixed, students really need to mark this in the music. WK’s wind ensemble has been blown up at a few times over this issue. So imagine, we give orchestra directors 100 pencils that they can give to their students to use in class to make the music better. The pencils advertise our student gala and bored cellists read them while the director is rehearsing a section with the violins. I think it’s a good idea. So, I explored the internet to see how much this would be likely to actually cost, going over Ashley’s head. I think that little amusing detail made the internet explorations all the more fun.

As far as “sit in front of a computer all day” days go, today was probably my favorite. Obviously, I’m happy not to have to make phone calls, although I did make a couple, but I was also happier than when I was compiling spreadsheets or whatever else I’ve done. It was just kind of amusing looking at all the toys and things I could buy online, and different from what I had been doing before. Tomorrow there will be more spreadsheets. The last thing I did was start compiling several lists of contacts into one for a mailing list for the student gala. I have a feeling that’s going to take a while.

Computers are SLOW

Monday nothing all too exciting happened, so I hereby reserve the right to skip on to Tuesday. (Yeah, Monday is what the "this is the purpose of journaling" bs was about. I'll write about what exactly I reflected on later maybes, but I want to sort some things out first. (: I'm holding you in suspense!)

Anyway, I've done some thinking about what I said about computers and internet before, and it hasn't remotely been a problem since then. I still sit in front of a computer the whole day, but I haven't tried to use them for things other than work. I haven't even really thought about it. Yes, at home I still can't get anything done until I've gone through a certain routine, but that's home and it's different I guess. I imagine that I have free time at home. Is that true? Well, I could stand to go to bed earlier.

I think just writing all that out helped straighten things out in my mind or something. The problem was not that I had nothing to do (I'm good at finding things to do) but that I didn't want to do what I was doing combined with the fact that I felt like what I was doing shouldn't have taken nearly so much time. Surely, somehow, time was being wasted.

Today Ashley (marketing) needed help researching contacts for a list of restaurants and she told me to go find and watch a video by Artzine at WOSU on ProMusica's work with Peter Shickelie and CCAD on this performance of a piece based off James Thurber's dogs and CCAD's animation of the drawings to fit the music. The point was to have me take a break because she realized that I'd been spending so much time doing that kind of work and felt bad. But I realized something. I have not yet thoroughly appreciated the true slowness of ProMusica's computers. This was a four minute video. I opened it and could at first only view 5 seconds and had to wait for the rest to load. So I worked on the restaurant contacts. I accidentally closed the window with the video and decided to let it load and use a different computer because to that point everything had been crawling.

Thirty minutes later, I came back and the video still had twenty, maybe thirty seconds left to load. I decided it would probably be done by the time I got to that part of the video if I started to play it. I got through everything but the last ten seconds. The computer still wasn't done.

So I am blessed with patience in that I don't mind waiting for computers to crawl along. But that is what was taking so much time when I was finding contacts and making calls. I found that it took me about the same amount of time to get through the contacts without calling as it had when I was making calls. It's just that before when that seemed outrageous I blamed it on myself somehow procrastinating and avoiding the task. Not to say I didn't at all—many of these restaurants had irritatingly flashy websites and probably took longer to load than many others I've been to lately. But in general, the problem was that I was on edge and was finding things to scare myself with.

A new problem I've observed is that there are snacky things lying around the office that I have been invited to help myself to if I wish. Well, this is another great way to avoid doing something for at least a couple seconds… except not really. The reasons why that could get problematic should be fairly obvious. Then there's just the part where if you walk by a box of cookies, and they're there and you can take one… it's very inviting. I'm pretty sure I have enough will-power to deal with this one though.

This is Fo' Realz!

On Friday, Katie and I basically finished up with finding and making contacts for the student gala silent auction. That was really refreshing. Cassie (Julia’s former intern and SAB chair) came in and she was really relieved to see all the work that we had done. (Mostly me!) Technically, other SAB-ers are supposed to have been contacting businesses to sponsor the gala or make silent auction donations. Thing is, there’s no guarantee that this will actually happen. It could yet, and I won’t speak ill of anyone. But so far as we know, no one else has yet. I think this was the first time I truly felt good about what I had been doing. It put new determination in me to actually finish making calls.

Saturday, I went around picking up a few items for the silent auction from businesses. That was an adventure because I did actually manage to get lost. This was the weekend of learning to drive independently. For all that I’ve had my license for over a year, I haven’t really used it for more than minor things like going to music lessons. I really don’t know my way around once you leave a… very small radius of my house. Not sure what that would be exactly. So on Friday I drove home by myself and learned that even though Worthington is North of downtown (I was so pleased with myself for not getting on 71 south even though it looked like where I thought I should get on the highway), 70 is South of where I was, so if I wanted to take 71 to 70 to 315, I wanted to get on 71 South. Figured, I always thought my weakness was landmarks even though I have a good instinct for orientation, but in this case I would have been golden had I trusted my landmark recognition and ignored the knowledge that I was “going the wrong way.”

Then, on Saturday, when I wanted to go to Polaris (among other places) my dad told my to take High St to Powel Road (my mom later couldn’t understand why he hadn’t told me to take the highway). Powel Road wasn’t really marked so I drove past it, tried to turn around and ended up on Powel Road going West (wrong direction) with nowhere (nowhere!) to turn around. So I never got to Polaris. I’m not sure when I will. I felt pretty proud of myself picking up the silent auction items though. It made the phone calls feel real and purposeful, and it was just cool to see plans that actually affect real life carry themselves out. Overall, I was rather pleased.